lifewithevan | ThoughtsWithMe

I spent the entire morning cleaning and reorganising my room. I had a rough night, as was made obvious by my last post and was ready for a slightly cleaner room. I'm now waiting for the washing machine to be finished so I can do my own.

My dad's been kind of a dick today, in a way that I can't explain fully. And my whole family has just thrown me off my game, I think today will be a "look after yourself day."

I feel oddly numb and am spending too much time reminiscing about ex friends who treated me like total shit but I still miss because they were also sweet and kind.

I also can't help but think I might've been the toxic one but then I'm not 100% sure and then I start spiralling. I don't think it's going to be a long post today, mentally I'm exhausted.

Signing off,

:/